Absurd title?isn't it?
Actually i got my vacations on-the time of the year i eagerly wait for!all set with new and innovative plans-which gym to join?which classes to attend?which places to visit?which books to read?which new language to learn?which new skill to enhance?all is planned and the plans are just perfect!!
and to be honest..often d planning is done long before the time starts..."my tym" starts..infact..all through the year..watever attracts me--and i can not do because of the so called"out of time"busy schedule"excuses..i plan to fix dese tasks up in this duration..all is set..jst wait fer the countdown to begin..wen i finally gt some "break" from the monotony of my life..
the very frst week of holidays..i feel like a prisoner set free by mistake..doing all things like never before!enjoying evry moment like never before!sleeping till noon..keeping awake till early morning hrs,,tht too to do all fun stuff..chatting..movies..computers..novels..and what not!
its "my tym"..and i enjoy it in my ways..absolutely foregtting abt the graver plans i had made for myself..enjoying the present..enjoying my laziness..enjoying my randomness..all seems jst perfect!
But soon as the days pass...i start getting bored..bored of the randomness..no longer do i find my ways interesting..the same computer fails to entertain me anymore..no book i find interesting..it is den wen i realise what plans i had made for myself..what i actually wanted to do these holidays..bt often its very late by then..those who didnot waste those initial days like i did..they are busy wth their plans..bt i feel as if i am on a dead end..wth registrations closed..wth no hope..i silently get irritated..and wait fer d remaining of my holidays to pass ..unenjoyed..under-utilised..though dere is this guilt of wasting so many precious days..bt i hv givn up..no hopes to make the rest of it!
same often happens wth our lifes..
when i ws a child..i had my plans..i wanted to be this..i wanted to do that.and all seemed perfect..bt i hardly realised..hw tym actually passed by..hw "my tym" started..when i should have been focusing..i hardly realised..when othrs around me started new things..Then i turned back..i realised hw mny opportunities i had wasted..i silently declare myself a loser..wth no hopes of attainment of my original plans..i am depressed..bt weak to own it up..or wrk upon it..bt is this how life should be???
though i missed a few opportunities..bt still the vacations are not yet over..who knows i might find some gym wth 1 valid registration?join aerobics if nt swimming?if not singapore..visit shimla atleast..if nt a 45 days course..get a self study book atleast..dont give up so easily..dont wait for the rest of time to pass by..utilise it..use tht whts left..who knws..those last..few days may give u self satisfaction..a hope to make dese holidays intersting..
who knws..opportunities of success may knock your door again..be vigilant..ready for that ..
keep reminding urself wt u had planned for yourself..and tht vl give u the vision..the enrgy..the motivation..
do not look where u fell..instead look where you slipped..and then catch on..
the sin is not in falling down..but in staying down..
get ready to be successfull.
keep smiling till then..
beautifully expressed, ishita.. i dont know why u wer so hesitating in posting this one.. i feel that vacations are meant to be enjoyed and rejoiced. now, it depends on an individual how to feel rejoiced.. and as far as implementing ur plans are concerned, its necessary to do something fruitful especially at such critical stage of our lives. but it should not be at the cost of entertainment and relaxation. again it depends on individual, how one plans one's holidays.. one may choose to enjoy in initial days, and then work hard when the vacations approach towards the end.. but the better option is always to strike a balance between ur academic plans as well as ur refreshment plans, both being equally important
ReplyDeleteit gives a wider and distinct view of our state of mind in vacations.. connecting with us.. also telling us to make good use of vacations to initiate our steps towards our goals our aims..
ReplyDeleteencouraging us to channelise the energy that is getting wasted sitting and making its use towards something good.. praise for that..
words used are also easy to understand.. making a clear impact in readers mind.. sign of a well executed blog.. well done.. waiting for the next..:)
are you here describing your sinusoidal kind of thinking... once get worried and then that "kuchh kar dikhana h" type feeling...!
ReplyDeletethis ending is even makes me feel that i've lost those days too, that i've too done nothing except sleeping and commenting on your blog posts... but wait, neither i or nor u have wasted any of this time. at least i keep some reasons as a back up or in your language, "to curtain up our laziness", watever it is...
the reasons which are best for you starts with this very blog that u've started in your leisure time... this is the thing u liked and u r carrying on... not like any other choices which you made just for sake of doing them... like if you really wanted to work out, u don't have to wait for a gym membership just start with a li'l jogging... now that was just to challenge ur above example.
see, this is ur time, my time, our time... if u r good at sleeping, do it now. may be i'm supporting this one b'coz m a lazy one too and i don't want to be the only one.. :P
n yes my other interest of commenting on the posts which i'm doing here at this late night b'coz i like it... like it so much that it may exceed the word limits provided for any comment here.. LOL
and i'm goin to save remaining reasons to help myself with the possible debate on this topic with you...
so bye 4 now :)
hie..frns..tx fer following up..
ReplyDelete@karan:i appreciate ur followup n wud surely like to debate wen we meet up.i meant to say tht its nvr too late.wake up anytym..and try making best of it.as fer jogging..evn i wrote join aerobics instead..its nt abt wasting..bt abt utilising d best as u can..bt look..evn fer a moment..u felt ur hols got wasted..dis is wt i meant to realise..instead of being sad abt wt u cudnot..rejoice wt u did..evn on a broader perspective of life..do wtevr u feel like doing..and enjoy it..